If you're expecting me to write about myself, an introduction of who I am or a description of myself you won't get any of that. I've decided to stay anonymous to everyone in this site for the time being. So far only one person knows at least my name and age, that's most prolly as far as it goes. I'll decide how much information I'll share with each individual that would come up to me. I'm anti-social yet I'm an extrovert, ironic isn't it? I can't live without other people and yet I hate being in big crowds. I'm weird, many people call me insane or crazy, thank you, I appreciate it heh.

You will notice btw, I don't post too much on my own blog. I just do so when I feel like it, right now I'm simply reading random entries of people that catch my interest, I only post comments if I feel I have something to say. If there's anything I'd share here though, I have got to say I love music. Music is my passion, it's my language and everyone else's.

Now, if there's anything else I have to say, here it is. To all who wish to get to know me, feel free, you may get lucky or you may not, I'm not anyone special, I have no big talents and I'm a very boring and ordinary person, I've signed up for this site only to observe, learn, understand life through other people and try to share what I've learned if I think it would be able to help anyone who needs it. Sometimes I'd be letting out things that I could no longer bear on my own but I guess that would be that. I think that would be a fair enough warning, come at me and I'll come at you...just make sure you can take the heat :).

It might not be the right time
I might not be the right one
But there's something about us I want to say
Cause there's something between us anyway

I might not be the right one
It might not be the right time
But there's something about us I've got to do
Some kind of secret I will share with you

I need you more than anything in my life
I want you more than anything in my life
I'll miss you more than anyone in my life
I love you more than anyone in my life

You know who you are. `sigh`

January 14, 2010

You light a spark in my chest, this fire is kindling within my heart. My soul burns because of you, I can shout at the top of my lungs that I am alive. From the first time our eyes met, I knew, I knew that I have found all that I want, all that I need...my everything in you. I love you more than I can say, more than I could ever show...I love you beyond the reason why. You are the source of all my strength and yet you are my only weakness. If it wasn't for you, I wouldn't be who I am right now. I miss you terribly, I love you with all of me...I thank you from the very bottom of my heart.

January 15, 2010

Everyone in this world is searching for something...for their purpose in life that will bring satisfaction for their undying crusade for contentment. Some fight for their dreams, to get their dream job, to save their family from the grip of poverty, to be rich or famous and/or whatnot. It's truly different for each and every person...but personally, I've been spending most of my life looking for the one person that I will love with all my heart...the person that I will devote the rest of my life to...the woman that I will spend eternity with, and that one and only person is you. Yes you've hurt me, crushed me, torn me apart to countless pieces leaving me to pick up after you and stitch myself up until I could stand up again. But even after all of that...I know, trust me I do...that my heart and soul is screaming out for you and only you. The moment you looked in my direction again back in November....I was already overjoyed, I knew there was hope...I knew that you still loved me..I endured for years, waiting for you...and now that you're finally back in my embrace, I won't ever let you leave again and I won't ever give you a reason to want to leave. Sleep tight my love...your face is so peaceful when you're asleep...you're just lying down on the couch while mom's eating dinner and I'm here on the PC doing this blog entry...I'm yours, yours alone...there is noone that would ever come between us again. You're mine and I will make sure to always take care of you and always love with you with all my heart..with all of me...

*to be continued...*

You may never know that the girl I've been spilling out my heart for here on tabulas is you and you alone. We've both decided that you won't know who I am here. You may guess but I won't tell unless you really make me confess.

I love you....

More than the reason why...more than any words could ever express...more than any action could ever show. I love you alone and I know we'll turn all of our plans and goals into reality.

I'm here....I'm yours....just as you are mine...mine alone.

Pitch black skies and starless nights,

Silent chill of the wind digging into your bones,

Moonlight brightly shines upon our souls,

Wandering aimlessly with nowhere to go,

Shades congregate, a crowd to behold,

Hoods and cloaks loosely hanging from their forms,

The earth weeps and trembles in their presence,

Silence spreads even with all the hustle,

Innocents do not notice the chaos about to unfold,

A clearing within the woods, the shades all gather,

Giant blaze at the center, it's light hidden by the wilderness,

Silence continues, sacrifices held fast before the fire,

Skinned alive and broken bones,

Given life only to suffer all torture,

Showered with salt before being cast into fhe flame,

The ritual is complete...the shades all disperse,

Until the night of silence once again, calls for this feast of the gods...